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BACK TO MY REVISION TODAY. TRIED TO BE BACK WALKING AGAIN AND I DID MANAGE TO WALK EVEN THOUGH THERE IS SOME PAIN BUT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT CANNOT BE AVOIDED. TODAY CONTINUE WITH ORGANISATION BEHAVIOR REVISION SO MANY THINGS WE WILL SOON BE CRAZY OVER THESE TOPICS NOW IS JUST ONLY MY REVISION I STILL HAVE GOT PASSED YEAR PAPERS TO PRACTICE. GUESS TODAY I WILL NOT MOVE ABOUT WILL BE ON DESK! WAS JUST CHECKING MY EMAIL JUST NOW RECEIVE AN EMAIL FROM A PARTICULAR ORGANSATION SAYING THAT THEY ARE ORGANISING A TEN PIN BOWLING COURSE FOR ALL DISABLED YOUTH WELL I GUESS I AM NO LONGER A YOUTH AM I? WELL I SHALL GIVE IT A TRY BUT AS I REALLY REALLY REALLY LIKE PLAYING SPORTS MAKE ME FEEL NORMAL WHEN I PLAY LIKE OTHERS. ACCORDING TO THEM AFTER THE TRAINING ONCE I MASTERED THE GAME,I CAN FINALLY PARTICIPATE IN NATIONAL DISABILITY LEAGUE. THIS SEEMS TO BE A DREAM TO ME AS SINCE YOUNG PEOPLE IN MY SCHOOLS THEY DONT ENCOURAGE ME IN THOSE BUT THROUGH THIS ORGANISATION I AM ABLE TO JOIN THE PLAY SPORTS BUT PROBABLY IN A DIFFERENT WAY BUT AT LEAST I AM ABLE TO PARTICIPATE I AM SATISFIED ALREADY. BUT ONE PROBLEM IS THAT I KEEP LOOSING MY HEARING ABILITY ON MY RIGHT EAR WHICH IS SOMETHING I REALLY HATED IT MOST PLEASE!!!!GET AWAY FROM ME AND DON'T EVER COME BACK AGAIN. HEARING ABILITIES PLEASE COME BACK!!!

Written @ 3:39 PM

Today is not really a pleasant day as I went as plan there will be an audition for me in the evening but I slipped and fell when I was heading to church after meeting a social worker before my meet up with her things was not so good too as my hearing ability is not doing quite well that I even the pain comes i tend to press onto. after the pain I decided to went back home as I was walking I didnt realise i was walking towards a puddle of water & bomp here I go on the ground & crutches flew. No longer the positive Vanessa that everyone knows. NO MATTER WHAT I DO IT NEVER GO SMOOTH...WHY????????

Written @ 8:37 PM

Today I had make up lesson for Business Accounting & Finance. Teacher stop walking to the back teacher when you are in front cause I cannot really hear what you teach. Guess today the pain has lessen as shown as I am able to reduce number of sweets I need to chew in order to reduce the pain but the hearing is still quite bad still not functioning quite well. I wonder how long does this last.Please return everything back to normal SOON!!!

Written @ 11:26 PM

我的天啊when are all the deafness and pain be gone every time i have to standby chewy sweet by my side when pain need to chew again...why will everything going to end!!! I had enough of it already...if the pain continue to come I will continue banging myself...smile in vanessa leong has disappeared... as pain keep coming earlier part of this evening it was I start to felt a bit better as I was chatting with my Jie Jie (meixin) we might not be biological sisters but our relationships with one another are very close sisters. Thought that we were just saying that time now that she say this phrase "I am your sister face together, i am your sister a day forever your sister", I know that there will be someone by my side when condition got worse. Thanks sis for being there for me when I am not feeling good.

Written @ 10:53 PM

Today actually is the official last day of school before exam break but ms tan was on mc yesterday so monday need to go back for extra class or rather i should say pay back class. Today I got to say that going for lectures is a challenge to me as I was not able to get into the clas if I didnt get any help from friends as the classroom is at the surrounding the pond side so no slope to link to so must wait for people to passed by to help...Thought that I will never face such problem anymore but I guess I am wrong. The class was more of chionging type as today is the last day. But we manage to finished up which is good. During Gloria's lecture I was sufferring as I was unable to hear clearly what Gloria is saying started to go to the canteen to get some sweets to chew and thought that would regain very soon as chewing with out realising I have chewed off 4 sticks on mentos sweet which scared everyone off first one was the green apple come grape come mints...when reached home I gave up and decided to hunt for chewing gum to chew instead after chewing for quite some time I am able to hear more or less as like before.Wah...Its been a long long time since last met 姐姐 Shiling haha meeting her soon as i just receive an email from her .So happy finally get to meet her again after decades of years...haha... I wonder if we could still recognise one another...HAHAHAHAHA...we will find out soon!!!

Written @ 1:31 AM

Today was not a good day ending. I didnt started it good as I cant really hear clearly what Gloria is saying when explaining due to my hearing problem where by i on phone sometimes also got problem hearing what the other party is saying. thats definitely no good. I wonder how long this would last. Hopefully this will end soon got really tired of it!!!

Written @ 10:23 PM

Today I somehow having a mixed feeling as I had lecture off means can do self revision thats the happy thing sad thing is that I am still having the pain and difficulties in hearing but good for me today as I can do my revision at home no need to go library. Thats the best thing when I am in such what i call the pain/torture to me. REALLY hope things will be over soon and as what Ms leong said "Rainbows will appear after a heavy downpour". Guess Firdaus is really one can look up too when not feeling good as to him "if one emo the other emo together"...Well I am emo because of pain I wonder how is he going to be emo with me??? this would be a question mark!!!

Written @ 10:47 PM

Today is actually suppose to be lecture day but Ms Tan lost her voice so we had no lectures instead we had tutorial. After tutorial headed back home thought after lunch can start revising at home BUT in the day time it was quite hard to concentrate as the drilling noise got so loud until i started to had headache and in the end I lost my hearing on my left ear for a few hours went back to campus when I was on my way back I happen to met Mr Wong one of my primary school Chinese teacher headed to the canteen to get a cup of fresh juice to drink while studying in the canteen since my hearing is still not fully recovering then right ear listen to music studied until 7 then slowly make my say home. Thought that after the 730 in the evening everything should had stopped so make my way home when I was on my way home met one of my primary school canteen vendor she brought her dog down for a walk played with it for quite a while after that headed back home for dinner. After dinner started studying for OB again now I am still at chapter two but I believe I can finished up to 11 soon!!! Guess this week afterall is a reunion week where by I get to see almost everyone that I have not seen for a long time. HAHA...I think I still have a few have not met for years. Will arrange to meet them AGAIN!!!

Written @ 10:09 PM

Guess should get back to my blog posting as due to medical condition to assure that I am still surviving even though with pain. Well today I went hospital to visit Khristine. Well I think I was the first one to reach thought as its going to rain at my house to thought of going abit early before I am stuck no where. When reached thought that probably meet Ms leong before visiting Khristine so drop her a sms then when reached call her. Before Ms Leong came I met shalini also from my secondary school who was there for medical check up We chatted for quite a while then after that she went back to work while I am in the canteen waiting for the guys while waiting I bump onto someone familiar again she is non other than my primary 3 form teacher Ms Lui wah this is like so long ago. Guess today is a day of coinsidence in hospital. When I got into the ward to get some help in hiding the surprise for Khristine I kept bumping onto other nurses and doctors who took care of me last year when I was in the ward. Could still remember in the middle of the night got woke up by them almost every night to change the cubicle what I called "merry-go-round". one of the beds was where my friend is staying now so the nurse will never forget. Had a very deep impression of that particular ward. Guess today this surprise for Khristine was quite succesful at first we were kind of worried as her mum saw me at the foodcourt in the hospital accidentally leak up the surprise to her mum told her to tell khristine when she went up to the ward before us she kept saying so touching but i told her not to say anything as a surprise for Khristine. Guess this surprise was a successful one as we manage to cheer her up.One thing for me to feel is that when I saw her on injection I could really feel very painful as I myself have been through it. Hope she will get out soon

Written @ 11:59 PM

Guess today it was not quite good but I still continue with be pain kinda like a torture to me as its on and off I will lost my hearing on my right ear for quite some time which is making me quite miserable especially when during lectures when teacher walk here walk there cannot read the teacher's lips on what she is trying to say the only thing that I can catch up is to. Since the pain relapse I have not been able to eat well or sleep well. The only thing that I can do to make me feel not so miserable is to have a fulfil day but when pain comes. But I think I am able to overcome the problems soon!

Written @ 12:15 PM

Today I had a one full day. Was out since 12 noon till night at about 830 reached home at about 9plus then spend time with my cousin. Started travelling to church to meet up with Peck Lian my (one million year friend), Yassy, and Marilyn at Pasta Mania and was told that there is a ministry started for us and for us to reach out to those friends who have the same/similar health problem to somehow form a support group. The moment I heard I was like "huh?" was kind of surprise when they say so. Can give it a try I guess. then in the midst we started talking about our individual life like how and what kind of health issue we going through etc. Guess thats not all they even manage to find out what are our interest.WOW. After all of those went up to church and find CG to find seats for service it was really great before service started I did some reading on my school notes. Thought that it would be the end of surprises for the day but the answer was NO! This is not the end of the surprises for the day after service they say they want to gather then wait for the rest to come then go eat together I was like oh ok. While waiting I was sitting down and talking for some other CG mates all of a sudden they announce "Hi everybody today we are celebrating Vanessa's Birthday!" then after that they started singing birthday songs Guess this group of friends will be more than friends to me as they would even celebrate my birthday every year since they know me they are also one who can be there for me when I am down emotionally or physically. Had a yummy cake its oreal cheese cake. WOW!!!THANKS EVERYONE!!!

Written @ 11:59 PM