My Kawaii Bloggie

Once again I went for Learn-To-Play bowling on wheelchair... this time I had a different feeling when i start to bowl...this is like a form of destress i guess... first few throw it was all down to the gutter but after that its like got hit down pins i was like woah...after all I guess since I still can bowl. I guess there is still some hope I can see in this sport that I am learning... each time when someone hit down the pins we will start to encourage one another feels so good... first time when i hit down the pins i thought i was like woah am I dreaming? then after that Lynn and Joyce and their mummy and some of the players saw started so encourage I feel that I should not give up when the pins were not hit...when pins got down is like troubles also got down...probably lessen I guess I should see it this way!!! TOMORROW IS A BETTER DAY!!!

Written @ 11:49 PM

As tomorrow I am going to be involved in some bowling activity somethings started to question me: how long am I able to continue with bowling? As day passes things became harder pain attack more frequent but I will always get myself to find ways to be distracted from the pain hence started folding origamis and stars as these where the things that I really enjoy doing when I am at home. If I am not occupied I probably back to where I was last year getting myself more unwanted cuts. Guess Life still have to move on no matter how hard things come across...I will try my best to carry on with the things that I am doing...This should not be the ending this should be the beginning!!!

Written @ 11:55 PM

Am i ever that useless? keep tripping and fall?? I WONDER WHEN WILL EVERYTHING GO BACK TO NORMAL??? WHY IS EVERYTHING KEEP HAPPENING TO ME? THOSE UNWANTED EVENTS KEEP COMING...WHY? WHY? WHY?

Labels: QUESTIONS MARK DAY

Written @ 6:29 PM

Its been a few days since I last posted something... was pretty in pain as so I cant really write...started to lost hearings and headaches keep attacking me and later on my right eye yesteday just vision start to blur on my right side...things keep attacking me...PLEASE STOP!!! Got an appointment with doctor on 9April 2010 Guess its time for me to arrange a check again as symtoms are here and besides its suppose to be a annual MRI done but i have not gone since then...I guess I better go arrange one before things got worse...I guess its sometimes ok to feel scared and cry but sometimes i still hide myself under blankets then cry probably i dont want people to know, thats why!!! I Got to get up strong and pick up things easily I guess

Written @ 12:17 AM

the wonderful FRIENDS that I had from YV

Thanks to AUTOSOS N FLYPAO for being there for me all these while you guys ROCKXxxx aside from those who i mention in the previous post you guys were the ones who where always there for me when I really needed someone when I am down and you guys would just send me thuns and thuns of encouragement through via sms each time i go for my medical appointment..Will always remember 12February2010 as I really enjoyed. Below are the photos taken when we were out at suntec(sorry if some pictures taken by my cam are blur)

Written @ 12:45 PM

Its been a long time since i updated my blog as i was emoing one who is very upset on things happening in life...as day passes I start to bang myself until head started to bleed for that i did not tell anyone about it just tell them i accidentally knock instead of hurting myself as i am upset due to the pain and the lost of hearing at times i will really get really tired. Jie Jie shiling thanks for being there for me for the past few months when i needed someone you are always there for me at this moment when health condition popping out questions that i start to feel lost.

Written @ 1:02 AM