Thursday, December 31, 2009
Today is the 4th month ever since the day i was diagnosed what cause the headache and blur vision. Thought that things would be better day by day but since last week things was not as good as headaches start to come back some times it was so pain that its like bursting. Due to pain I was not able to either eat or sleep well. When I am school I am not able to concentrate what the lecturer is teaching for the lesson the only thing I can do is to hide myself somewhere where no one can find and start to cry for some time as the pain sometimes is unbearable that some times I start to find things to hit my head, hit my eye area or in another words thought of giving up in life which I know everyone will not agree for that but REALLY TIRED with the pain and torture. When I am in class I just have to bear with it on 21 December 2009 the pain was so unabarable that I walked out without teachers permission or rather i should say before the break for the day was out of the class for quite some time as i locked myself up in the toilet to start crying as I dont want the whole class to see my emo face. Thanks Milinda being there to comfort me when I am in pain if not I think I will just find things to hurt myself leh. Since then I am not able to eat well every day all I had in school were 4 cups of milo which lasted me until evening. Life for me don't seem good as I have to tolerate with the pain and tiredness due to pain. Here I would like to say a big thank you to DBMD 10965A for being there for me when I am in pain to make me feel that I am not alone and celebrating my birthday on 23 December 2009 and of couse not forgetting the friends I made in YV camp and met up for afterglow on 26 December when during lunch FLYING PAO started to singing in the mids everyone in YV started singing and sending birthday greeting on 23 December via facebook and sms. Thanks TO EVERYONE FOR BEING BY MY SIDE WHENEVER I NEED! I SHALL CONTINUE WITH THE BATTLE
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