Received a call from hospital past few days doctors still not quite convince about the problem. even started to question doctors like :
1.Is this true?
2.How true?
3.How serious?
4.Why so many things pile up as day passes?
5.Will there ever be happy ending?
6.should I put a hundred percent trust on the doctors that I am seeing?
7.Should I take he doctor's advice?
8.Whats the purpose of life?
All these things that are happening are seriously driving me go crazy when doctor say this I will end up asking the doctor "why like that?". Then doctor arrange an MRI in the hospital on 29 sept which is coming pretty soon, as days passes I start to loose sleep and start to wonder one thing and that is "what if next morning when I wake up my whole world is dark how am I going to carry on in life?" Please dont happen before I explore and find the answer. Going to leave it until I finish performing for fundraising. After appointment thought of going for hangout with some friends end up doctor ask me to go for sneak peak for channel news asia main news reason as cannot find patient i was like "huh?? er.. ok!" and all I have to do is to walk into the doctor room and let them shoot the consultation scenario.
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